January 13, 2018
Well, I blew it! It’s not the first time. It won’t be the last time. But I definitely dropped the ball. During the break, I decided to identify topics I wanted to cover in my Thursday Wire updates. On my schedule, I identified that this week’s letter would address the importance of ownership. Who knew I would provide first-hand examples from my own life? Who am I kidding? Given the law of averages, I’m confident I could have predicted it.
I love middle schoolers. Period. No exception. I would fight to the death for them. I will willingly challenge anyone who suggests that they lack importance or significance. I struggle mightily when people disregard them. I understand that they can be difficult to understand at times. Often, their absentminded behavior creates struggle and frustration. But I relate to them on many levels. Background on who I am may serve to give you a clear picture of just why they have my heart.
I struggle mightily with talking to adults. I do. Truly, I do. Each and every day, I enjoy the opportunity to grow in this area. Other than flying, this is my greatest fear. I battle ADD. Every. Single. Day. My staff and students can confirm this. While my mistakes can occur for a variety of reasons, typically they result when my ADD is in overdrive. Thus, I bring you this week’s example of the importance of ownership.
Before I share, please note the following detail. I provide this example in order to demonstrate that I try as best as I can to, as Dr. Maya Angelou said, “Live my teaching.” I do not provide it for any other reason. I began my blog post on Friday before break ended. I struggled to find my voice.
So, I procrastinated. I saved my post as a draft and decided to return when I was more focused. Well…that didn’t happen. I never returned to it. It occurred to me 6 days later when I stopped by Mrs. Carlson’s office to ask her a question. I found her putting the finishing touches on the Wire. I internally rolled my eyes and blurted, “Ugh!” I never went back to my post. I rushed back to my office to try to complete it. On the way, my radio called me to another part of the building. That was that. Post not completed on time, or at all for that matter.
Today, in the middle of my run, I remembered my negligence. Totally frustrated and discouraged, I made my way home to finish my post. When I logged into my computer, I found several emails waiting for me. Several that suggested I really struggled to navigate my week mistake free.
Yes, the building is still standing. Yes, everyone finished the week with an excellent education. Yes, everyone was safe. But I know where I dropped the ball. I know the things that I did not manage correctly. I know the things that slipped through the cracks because I didn’t stay focused and engaged 100% of the time.
When I have moments, days, or weeks like this, I need to do several things. First and foremost, I need to take ownership. I need to reflect on what went wrong and what needs to be corrected. Finally and most importantly, I need to do better. So, I will spend the weekend reflecting and planning.
I respectfully request, that as a family, you spend time discussing the importance of ownership. Model it. Embrace it. Find freedom in it. I once read a quote that said, “Surround yourself with people who force you to do better!” I choose middle schoolers. They call a spade a spade. But they respect authenticity. They really do. I love them for keeping my integrity intact!
Honored to Serve You All,